Tuesday, September 9, 2008

But when I’m surrounded I just can’t stop


See that small little bed in the background. That is the bed that belongs to a preschooler as of today. The bed that used to be my father's as a little boy. The bed that Finn sleeps on every night. The bed that I curled up on for an hour today and may or may not have wet with my tears at the thought of losing Finn a bit more to the outside world. It is exciting and terrifying at the same time. When I think about it too long I start to feel my chest tighten. Like all day.


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15 comments:

village mama said...

big bloggie hug (((xoxo)))...have you considered homeschooling? Since you are most OBVIOUSLY a gorgeous-fantastic-mama-genius he's in fantastic hands :-)

amy turn sharp of doobleh-vay said...

hey mama! I have- but I think he needs a little social time- three days a week for 2.5 hours. I am thinking it is going to be good for him. I am still on the fence about HS and next year. I am nervous. I don't know yet! :)

Joslyn said...

oh sweet finn...he will do so well in that outside world because he has a mama like you. for sure.

paige said...

I bet he had a marvelous time--all while you suffered. Children are such wretched little things--no wonder I want some more...

I'd like the epilogue of the day, please!

Headless Mom said...

Yes, how did he view his get-away day?

Oh sweetie. I know how you feel!

Kate Coveny Hood said...

That's too much at once. Starting pre-school AND a big boy bed? I think you're right though - preschool is great social time for an oldest child.

I love that my oldest goes to real school (regardless of the reasons). At daycare everyone is younger than him - and he needs to be with more kids his own age.

I've never considered home schooling - but I can't imagine that it would be hard to go from pre-school to home school. And by then he'll be old enough for organized activities with other kids that don't take place at school.

Very important for kids to be with other kids - and not just siblings. But then you're kind of like a kid in a grownup's body - so I guess you count too.

SusieJ said...

It's just not fair... we love them, we raise them... and they leave.

Amy said...

You are so sweet.

Sizzle said...

I don't even have kids and this pulls at my heart strings. It's hard to watch them grow up and so beautiful at the same time.

karey m. said...

YOU CANNOT SEND MY FINN TO THE WOLVES!

{sigh.} i guess he had to venture out sometime. but i swear, if some naughty hooligan says one word about his costumes...

i'll be on the next plane. xoxo.

Kaylovesvintage said...

I was not easy for my when Nila went so school, but I got the feeling he will do just fine and you will have some time Quality time with Blaise

Jodi said...

I feel you Amy, Jakob started preschool today too. My stomach is in knots and my chest is tight. I'm sure he'll have a wonderful time today!

Kelly O said...

I hear you. Every step takes them farther away.

a little bird said...

you are such a good mama <3

stacy said...

I think kids growing up is just as scary for adults if not more than it is for children.

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