Monday, June 2, 2008

Whenever you need someone to lay your heart and head upon.






The state of the atmosphere with respect to wind today is perfect. It is lovely as it swirls around and the sun is shining brighter than ever. It is gorgeous outside. Finn worked on building a house outside with his cool tools. We spent the whole day in the garden and grandma and grandpa surprised us with a little visit that included post lunch chocolate ice cream cones.


I posted and emailed all of you that requested mini camp packets...I am posting them on a blog called CHEEKYMONKEYPLAY. Here. I think I replied to all of you that emailed- if not, hope yr reading this!!! :)
I plan on getting weeks 1-3 up this week and 4-6 next week. xo



Even with weather like this and chocolate ice cream, my heart is so heavy. One of my dear friends is going into rehab this week. She is suffering from alcoholism and has been since the day she whispered it into my ear in a taxi cab at three in the morning ten years ago. She has had ups and downs but it is at a massive watershed right now. It is time to really decide to live or die. I have been torn up and down and sideways and fat hot tears slide down my cheeks when I wonder why some people get caught with things. Why did it happen to her and not me or anyone else I went to college with? How does the world work? Not with a bang but a whimper...

11 comments:

Hippo Brigade said...

The good thing is your friend is getting help. There are some family members of mine who are so proud to admit that they struggle with alcohol and drug use. Their pride keeps them from healing. Your friend is healing, and has an open heart, and maybe one day she will proclaim that she is free.

a little bird said...

as an alcoholic, and a rehab graduate, i can tell you this: there is a long road ahead, i relapsed after rehab, but it was the first in many steps to the 2 years of sobriety i have today. so what looks like a setback might be a step forward...

... not judging, and just being there, helps. you sounds like a wonderful friend.

TZT said...

As a person who loves some folks who are in recovery (and some who are not), I'll just say that I hope that this remains a landmark day for your friend that she is able to celebrate many times in the coming years.

vincent said...

I agree with everyone else and their comments. Being sober now for almost 7 years I can say that it is true, having someone like you would be a wonderful help. Every human being is SO unique along with each individuals make-up, and life circumstance. My mother just asked me the other day how my boyfriend and I did it, and yet my other family members can't. I don't know the answer to that, but I do know that you are a godsend to her just like you were the many years ago when she first trusted to tell you the truth...

mary said...

Sending love and prayers your friend's way...

village mama said...

Bear (((hug))) for you, prayers for your dear friend. XO

SnakeCharmer said...

I think we all do our own things to get through this life and some of those things are just more destructive than others. You are awesome for holding space for her, which may be all you can do sometimes.

SnakeCharmer said...

You are awesome for holding space for her and for being someone to lay her heart on... I think that is sometimes all you can do, but sometimes it is hard to appreciate the importance of it when you start to feel that you aren't doing enough.

Anonymous said...

Hey, wanta go to an Al-Anon meeting with me this weekend? I go to a Sunday night meeting that I adore. Let me know.

(I'd use my name, but since it's not just my recovery story, I feel that I should be discreet)

You know me, I'm a neighbor with pink and white bloomers!

Joslyn said...

you're a good friend amy t sharp...everyone should have a friend like you.

Sizzle said...

We are going through a similar situation with our friends, you're right. It's heartbreaking. I don't know why some get caught and others don't. :(

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