Saturday, December 27, 2008

Live your life filled with joy and thunder

, originally uploaded by mistybliss.

I may be feeling a bit out of sorts today. I always feel like this when I go home to my old stomping ground. That small town. I am headed there tonight to meet up with some old friends and I am excited-but nervous.
I always forget that I am so different of a person than I was those many many years ago but then in the same second I know I may be exactly the same and it kinda freaks me out.

I will most likely revert to type and become the jester and the drinker and the one that keeps the party at a frenzied state. I will most likely have a ton of fun after I shake off the initial oddness of being thrust back into the same small town that I could not wait to blaze right out of back in 1992. I will have a good night, but my hope is that I will really be able to talk to some of these folks and connect and find whatever it is that holds you sorta together even after a million years.
That same small town in each of us kinda thing.
And I won't be elitist and I won't judge and I hope the same from all I encounter.
I just hope they have better beers on tap than last time I was there.


Piper said...

Wow, I can relate to this.

I have gone and done and lived such a larger life than so many of the people I grew up with in my tiny hometown. It's hard for me to go back and not feel like they are simple-minded people, and it's hard for me not to judge that.
They see me as an oddity for my ways too though.

It all just reminds me that I'm grateful for the path I took. A path that expanded my thinking, and opened my mind.

Rock on gull, rock on.

laurie said...

I love that song and I love that you used it here. And I love that picture. Pretty much love love love all around. Nice!

I'm getting together with a bunch of people from different phases of my life tonight to help me celebrate the turning of my year, and I've been thinking about the same thing all day...really tempted to stay on my couch and watch football and drink beers until it's tomorrow. But I won't, I'll go and try to strike that balance between who I've been for a lot of them for whatever span of time and who I am right now.

It bet you have a good time...I'm wishing for some good beer for you. ;)

mary said...

As usual, your words hit home again.

I hope you have a great time tonight :) xoxo

The Lil Bee said...

God, I love that song...

I can relate in SO many ways, most particularly because I married someone from high school and live just minutes from our home town. It does freak me out a bit when I think about it too much. I hope you had a really great time at home, one that was equal parts 1992 boozefest and 2008 intellectual!


daisy janie : scoutie girl said...

Just did this yesterday! And it's always amazing to me how quickly we fall back into conversation as if not a day has passed. And, like you, I fit a certain role in my group - and don't always want to be that person. We've all had our fair share of ups and downs - and I think that's what connects us more than our day-to-day values and goings-on.


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